Wednesday, last visit to anti-natal for daughter…
It’s beautiful down here in West Sussex. I’m so pleased we finally made the move down south. There’s a patch of trees on the right of my house where I can see the birds happily tweeting away. I found it so quiet when we first moved in that I left the windows open a fraction so I could hear the birdsong outside.
The fields at the back of our new home are hemmed in by bushes and trees. I keep hoping I will see a rabbit running across the grass. My mind keeps flipping from ideas for my new home to my daughter’s imminent first born child. I’m very excited and I’ve had to increase my muscle relaxants so I can sleep better and be on better form for my first grandchild to enter the world.
I decided I would take my daughter for her last anti-natal appointment at the hospital. The hospital was old and the corridor stuffy. The walls were magnolia but badly marked from the trolleys. It reminded me a bit of my old boarding school, I was expecting Matron to pop around the corner at any minute.
The anti-natal suite was buzzing with pregnant ladies and some with their other children. It was a hot and sticky day and the only fan they had was on the opposite side of the room. A video was playing above where we sat which was going through everything a new Mum should know about her baby.
I sat and listened to her obstetrician explaining what could or could not happen during her childbirth and I struggled to hold back my emotions. I just wanted to change places with her so I could take all the pain for her. I’m used to pain after all.
We drove home the long way along the seafront. Waves roared and rolled down crashing onto the shore with a soft hiss. I could just catch a glimpse of my daughter starting to relax and knew this was the right route to take home. I assured her that whatever pain she goes through tomorrow will just be a distant memory when she holds her baby for the first time.
I think my sleep tonight will be an emotional one and I can only hope that by this time tomorrow Mum and baby will be doing just great.